What is it about this world? Why are we so fascinated with torturing ourselves, others? Why do idolize the depraved, the sinister? Why do we desire to exploit? What is it that makes us want to claw ourselves up to the top? What's there anyways but an empty power that is only a false mastering of our own insecurities fashioned from societal dictates?

Why do I feel so institutionalized by my own willingness to belong to a coupling? Why do I still feel so alone? Why do I fool myself? Why am I drowning?

What am I drowning in?

Self-loathing
Fear
Hatred
Denial


Or could it be - REALITY?